I gaze into the skies
Stars shimmer in my eyes
I feel my soul arise
No more disguise and I
I surrender

And I was falling
But now I'm soaring
And I I stayed low for the longest time
As the years went by so I
I surrender

All of myself to the fates and the gods
It's in their hands now facing the cards
Rolling the dice playing the odds
But not quite sure what they're capable of
Never really felt much came from above
Did I play that wrong did I write well enough
Did I wait to long it's too late to give up (I dunno)
I try to put a little bit of me inside of every single lyric with sincerity
Rhythm rift and melody
And every single second that my fingers isn't dancing on the piano
Then it damn well almost feels like infidelity
Cruz without Penelope wiz without the celery
Always wondering if it's as good as I will ever be
Alls I know is every single second in the studio's
Like doing blow and better than the shit the dealers selling me
I wonder what will happen now
Let's be honest probably nothing
Is their anyone who likes this sound
Hello anybody home (nope)
Back to the same job same car same house
Same grind same life same shit everyday
N yes it's a good life quiet life safe life
So don't get me wrong I'm thankful for every
Little bit of it but never really been for settling
Could I take this piano turn this life into a better thing
Stay up late into the night and keep on gliding me and sliding me
Across the paper till the ink runs dry said the pen
Waking up dead again, same place yet again
If tension is the malady then music is the medicine
I'd like to stay up later and I'd like to keep on writing
But I'm working in the morning so I better get to bed again

I gaze into the skies
Stars shimmer in my eyes
I feel my soul arise
No more disguise and I
I surrender

And I was falling
But now I'm soaring
And I I stayed low for the longest time
As the years went by so I
I surrender

All of who I am to the stars in the sky
Can these notes possibly cause them to shine
Hoping this time these stars could align
Maybe they can here me I'd appreciate it greatly
Dreams they go and fade away but I recall them vaguely
Settle down with a family maybe
But have you seen the price of a house in this town lately?
And all I've ever wanted to live in peace in my own home I
Don’t need the whole pie just a little piece
Maybe I could finally take a second and just rest a little bit n
Calmly sit n take a fucking break to smell the breeze
Little rancher in the trees I'm ok with killer bees
Maybe I could finally take this hammer and just sell it please
Maybe I could take these hymns and limericks and develop beats
And kindly take a little bit of pressure off these swelled-up knees (yes please)
I know that I will have to face
Chin up back straight bones are strong
All of my fears I will embrace
Been in this comfort zone too long
Fumes fuel my body getting little sloppy
Bit drained man I think I need a little coffee
Cuz it's two o’clock in the morning and I'm going and I'm flowing
So forgive me if my voice a little choppy
Cuz I ain’t gonna live with these regrets nope not me
Reigns on keyboard I'm a be the jockey
Together gonna ride into the middle of the desert with a fiddle
N this shit is gonna get a little rocky (yup)
Like the mountains but that ain't gonna stop me
No longer gonna wonder are some people gonna mock me
Probably so afraid of other people views
I kept my music in the studio n look at where that got me

I gaze into the skies
Stars shimmer in my eyes
I feel my soul arise
No more disguise and I
I surrender

And I was falling
But now I'm soaring
And I I stayed low for the longest time
As the years went by so I
I surrender

And so it's back to the grind and the swamp
And I don’t know how much I will last today
Patient yes I'm but it's a waste of my time somebody please take me away
I got the floor plan I gots to go man nothing much left to say
Couple jet packs I got those rocket to the cosmos and I'll just blast away
Cuz I'm a castaway

It was 2004 when couldn't take anymore and
I had enough n so I threw my hammer on the floor then
Bought a one way ticket told my boss he can kick rocks
Cuz I ain’t coming back for a while bitch lift off
Cuz I'm a dreamer man I don’t belong
At a 9 to 5 all day dozing off
So I'm heading home and I'm packing up my stuff
I'm doing this alone man I've had enough
And so if I'm ever coming back man I don’t know I'll take it slow
but alls I know I’ll leave my phone at home I’m unavailable
This life of mines erasable foot prints are untraceable
All valuables inside of bags n sold em those are days of old
And so it goes perfect timing going where no one can find me
Off the map disguised and hiding going where no one can find me
And I know can't last forever this adventure fact of matter
And I'll have to swing this hammer once again please don’t remind me

And so it's back to the grind and the swamp
And I don’t know how much I will last today
Patient yes I'm but it's a waste of my time somebody please take me away
I got the floor plan I gots to go man nothing much left to say
Couple jet packs I got those rocket to the cosmos and I'll just blast away
Cuz I'm a castaway

So I cash my last check plane leaves tomorrow
My room is hallow fears I will swallow
And after the supplies I bought n after gave my shoes a polish
I done had about a couple hundred dollars in my wallet
Drank a bottle friends and I made some calls said my goodbyes
Smiling as I close my eyes first time I rose into the skies
I got no one to meet I got no where to go
And where I ended up tomorrow didn't care to know
Alls I knows I'm getting s'far away from town as I can be
There are some beaches and some sunsets I would like to see
Enjoy them quietly all alone I like to be
Completely lost n rolling solo always felt just right to me
But I gotta make these dollars so I gotta get back to it
N theirs only ever been one way that I know how to do it
I swing this hammer this extension of my hand and threw it
I saved up to buy this studio so I can make some music

And so it's back to the grind and the swamp
And I don’t know how much I will last today
Patient yes I'm but it's a waste of my time somebody please take me away
I got the floor plan I gots to go man nothing much left to say
Couple jet packs I got those rocket to the cosmos and I'll just blast away
Cuz I'm a castaway

Four thousand five hundred fifty two days
I’ve been swinging this god damn hammer hooray
I'm a nice guy a sweet guy yeah you say
But life went n burnt the surface no I'm creme brulée
Now it's Monday morning and I gotta go rip out these doors man
Hey Nate do you think these tiles e'll match this new floor plan?
(I don't fucking know man)
I'm dreaming of beaches n jungles like I'm Tarzan
Clients bitchin away my minds on fucking Mars man
I'm with the stars man, but good at smiles and
Lucky I'm pretty charming yes I love these tiles ma’am
Sometimes I dream about just going back to Thailand
Buy a little plot n squat on it and call it my land
N build a giant fucking barbed wire fence around
Made of concrete with posts 6 feet deeply mounted
And buy a couple dogs size of jaws from the pound n
If you even get within a hundred feet alarm is sounding

And so it's back to the grind and the swamp
And I don’t know how much I will last today
Patient yes I'm but it's a waste of my time somebody please take me away
I got the floor plan I gots to go man nothing much left to say
Couple jet packs I got those rocket to the cosmos and I'll just blast away
Cuz I'm a castaway

I remember when thirty years old was a long ways away
Lot of words out our big mouths but nothing much to say
We’d sit on the back porch stars in our eyes and dream away
I remember those days

So when did the day turn night
Our eyes only wide
N so nother day goes by
Oh man oh me oh my
How the time flies few lines in the eyes
Wonder how we made it through the pain n the cries
Stumbling and we faded little trouble but we made it
Through another sunset through another sunrise
So we all grown up now cherish that pearl
Look back at a time not a care in the world
And oh how the time just twirls away
Seems like a world away
Jump out the ride hop the fence to the back
Heading to the bonfire with tents on the rack
Condense and we stack how we fit
Six people in a little Honda civic two tens in the back
Grab the ice and the juice lights and the music
Night will come soon be tomorrow when we're done
Sorrow I see none cuz we put all of our
dollars together for a couple bottles of cheap rum
N I'll grab my guitar and we'll all sing and play
As the sun slowly goes away
Down the mountainside and we're bound to find
A great long night coming down the line
Getting outta line me n these clowns of mine
Hoping five o don't shut us down this time
And so were gonna go late into the night
The fire glowing bright
We were only kids man
(Shit was yesterday man)

I remember when thirty years old was a long ways away
Lot of words out our big mouths but nothing much to say
We’d sit on the back porch stars in our eyes and dream away
I remember those days

Now 30 came and gone and the chains were long
Life hit us hard but we came in strong
Broke some bread and we sang some songs
N we caused some shit and we rang some gongs
But we never gave up stayed strong and played
Game relentless longest days
Oh we were wrong some days
Learned a few lessons along the ways
It was time for adulting goes with the load
Twenties were just up over the road
Low and behold so that it goes
Talks about how we’d take over the globe
But life had its own plans how it goes now
How it rolls round where our souls bound
Seeds we sewed now we all grown now
Got a few little kids of our own now
Got a little bit split up far and wide
Round the world hard to find
Head to two scars and grime
But all the stars remind
Us that we'll always be brothers and sisters
N after all of the cuts and the blisters
Fucks and the trickster’s dust and the twisters
It's been nothing but love and I miss yas
Yeah that’s right I miss y'all little bit
Never get rid of it now that I think of it
Could be on another fucking planet but it doesn't matter
Those days always hold on to a bit of it
And I know if we ever meet back some day
Back to the porch like back in the day
All of us back together again
It’ll be like nothing ever had changed
(We're family man)

I remember when thirty years old was a long ways away
Lot of words out our big mouths but nothing much to say
We’d sit on the back porch stars in our eyes and dream away
I remember those days

I remember when thirty years old was a long ways away
Lot of words out our big mouths but nothing much to say
We’d sit on the back porch stars in our eyes and dream away
I remember those days

We are we are we are
We are the pushers the grinders
The workers the fighters
We'll fill up our lighters
Turn ash into fires
We are

We are we are we are
We are the pushers the grinders
The workers the fighters
We'll fill up our lighters
Turn ash into fires
We are

We are fighters adrift
Long days are the life that we live
Gonna do it right gonna fight for a little slice
Ain't gon play it safe gonna roll the dice in this blitz
For our loved ones husbands wives and the kids
Do it once do it twice do it thrice and we give
Everything we got n'matter what the price of it is
Just so they can live a little better life than we did
So we push and we fight and we work and we grind
And we scratch and we scar and we hurt and we find
That we get stronger through the dirt and the grime
Cuz the water at these depts murky n lime coloured
N theirs monsters that hide lurk in the
And they try to bring us down but it ain’t working this time
Ain’t no block in the road nobody controls us
When our body and souls in concert with the mind
So we crash and collide and we bash and we ride
And we smash and we'd die just to cash in our prize
And we blast and we grind every task every time
Just so we can get a little fucking gas in our lighters
And you can see the pain last in our eyes
Forth and back with tides overcast in the skies
And long after the cries like the grass when it dries
From the ashes we'll rise with that passion that drives us
Little time b'for the sun sets on our years
N’after the finish line still yet it appears
We're in a life long fight with the depths of our fears
Pay our dues with our blood and our sweat and our tears
It's gon be a long day till we find some way
To live these lives our lives our way
I was all for the freedom the hope and it's funny
Cuz I never wrote a single fucking note for the money
(When I was broke n I was hungry)

We are we are we are
We are the pushers the grinders
The workers the fighters
We'll fill up our lighters
Turn ash into fire
We are

We are we are we are
We are the pushers the grinders
The workers the fighters
We'll fill up our lighters
Turn ash into fire
We are

We are the rogue sharks the lone wolves
We play by our own rules
We go outside of the box against the grain
The pressures immense going through this dense terrain
But we get off on the strain the suspense the pain
And to some we come off a little bit intense insane
But we will always look beyond the fence and aim
Towards the horizon to the next and claim
Our goals and dreams as our and we'll hold them tight
Our souls cannot be sold or controlled we might
Just lift a couple boulders up on our shoulders hike
N stroll to the north pole through coldest night
Or stare straight into the eyes of a poltergeist
Walk a mile on smoldering coal or ice
If it was the path nothing is too overpriced
We'd do it all man then we'd do it over twice
All these barriers just walls to smash
No matter the obstacle stand tall surpass
Stagger n hobble limp and crawl the path
Our pure will that fire insides all we have
We'll be reborn in a new age
Open the door to this new page
Cuz every mornings a new day
So we gonna seize it before it is too late
N tik tok times ticking it's ticking so fast
Today and tomorrow become so quickly the past
So we gotta choose are we snoring or lifting the mass
Are we gonna snooze or we throwing a brick in the glass
And so yesterday fades away
And tomorrow becomes today
We'll gear up and sharp our fangs
And we'll start this fire and we'll bangarang

We are we are we are
We are the pushers the grinders
The workers the fighters
We'll fill up our lighters
Turn ash into fire
We are

We are we are we are
We are the pushers the grinders
The workers the fighters
We'll fill up our lighters
Turn ash into fire
We are

Todays gonna be a good day
I'm a make it my day
Cuz this life I'm a live it my way
I’m living life with no more drama man
I got a plan
I'm living each and every single day
Like it's Friday

Todays gonna be a good day
I'm a make it my day
Cuz this life I'm a live it my way
I'm moving forward man
I leave the past behind me
You can find me skippin down the road
If you see me say hi hey

Well not literally
Fuck it man literally say hi to me haha
I'm waking up this morning big old smile upon my face
N how can I be fly today leave my problems miles away (goodbye)
Feed my turtles little mister Malcom mister Mortimer
Here's some snacks for y’all to have before I'm heading out the door
Well hello Mr. squirrel where’s your girl
I brought you both a walnut you can share together rare this whether ain’t it Merl?
And mister robins got allot of work done on his little bird apartment
I will see you when I back from work how bout it (have a good day)
Theirs a special pep inside my step today nothing much is left to say
I'm taking all the good n'throwing the rest away (yup)
I'm gon invest in me, yes I'm on a quest to say
Yes to life and always feeling blessed is now my destiny

Todays gonna be a good day
I'm a make it my day
Cuz this life I'm a live it my way
I’m living life with no more drama man
I got a plan
I'm living each and every single day
Like it's Friday

Todays gonna be a good day
I'm a make it my day
Cuz this life I'm a live it my way
I'm moving forward man
I leave the past behind me
You can find me skippin down the road
If you see me say hi hey

Ugh yeah about that
I'm just playin man haha
I'm bout to hit the road and stoic my philosophy
This guy just cut me off the old me woulda flipped him off but he's
Just comedy he's squat to me n honestly he’s probably
Distraught his wife just makes him feel like wanting a lobotomy (not my problem)
I'm dancing like a wallaby chips on their shoulders not on mine
I gotta get my gas full but this asshole stole my spot in line
But it's fine can't be half as bad as what he's got to grind
Fifty with a hair piece driving a Mazda Miata lime (mid life crisis)
My customers a little bit of a bitch today
I guess she didn’t get her wine this morning did you rich lady
This desperate housewife left her flask and vodka bottle back at Lowes
She's classy bro but I'm still gonna make this client happy though (cuz why not)

Todays gonna be a good day
I'm a make it my day
Cuz this life I'm a live it my way
I’m living life with no more drama man
I got a plan
I'm living each and every single day
Like it's Friday

Todays gonna be a good day
I'm a make it my day
Cuz this life I'm a live it my way
I'm moving forward man
I leave the past behind me
You can find me skippin down the road
If you see me say hi hey

Just keep singing man I just keep singing
Ladadadadadada
Just keep singing man I just keep singing
Ladadadadadada
Ok I'm heading home my client paid in full exhausted man
Put in the hours just like everyday and gave it all I had
And even though it's not a passion not a love this skill of mine
I'm always thankful that it puts food on the table still it's fine
At least for now it's decent hours as long as my knees allow
Won't be without but the minute I'm able to I'm peacin out
I'm feasting now this day was the bull I was the matador
Put down my toolbelt and my hammer kick my boots off at the door
N I'm finally home now and behind this door this world is bliss
First I give my dog a hug and then I give my girl a kiss
It's just another day fresh out the shower now I'm new to go
And you just know now that I'm heading back inside the studio (hell ya man)

Todays gonna be a good day
I'm a make it my day
Cuz this life I'm a live it my way
I’m living life with no more drama man
I got a plan
I'm living each and every single day
Like it's Friday

In my room
It's like a dance and play
And I slave all day
In a tranced up state
In my room
I know I'm staying up late
In my room in my room

In my room
I think these walls are talking
In my room
I here these voices calling
In my room
In my room
In my room
(I think I'm going crazy man)

I think theirs monsters in the closet this room is haunted
Are these spirits good intentioned or they possibly demonic
Mix the sauce up with the tonic lyrics tossed in with the phonics
I'dunno what the fucks going on man I'm just lost in the harmonics
And all of these vibrations flowin though me to them nothing can compare
And these notes have got me feeling like I'm floating in the air
And theirs tingles in my fingers getting shivers every time
And the hairs are standing up behind my neck and down my spine
It’s like I've travelled through a portal to another world
Where normal ain’t normal transform into a form invincible immortal
And I look up at the ceiling I can see right to the skies
And the lights keep flickering I think this rooms alive
Theirs footsteps in the hallways and theirs scratches in the attic
And their calling for me n'I oblige yes cuz I'm addict
And I take my room with me everywhere I go inside my mind
And as soon as I get home first thing I'm going back inside

In my room
It's like a dance and play
And I slave all day
In a tranced up state
In my room
I know I'm staying up late
In my room in my room

In my room
I think these walls are talking
In my room
I here these voices calling
In my room
In my room
In my room
(The fucks going on man)

Shadows on the walls are signing names to the ceiling climbing
And they're leading me back inside and I kindly follow blindly
And they say Nate get rhyming not even god can find me
When I go inside the room and they close the door behind me
Now here we go again and they will not let me out
And I'm trying to figure out what the fuck is this about
And they just keep telling me to put my pen to pad
And I wonder what my life was like before this room I had
Ok I'll get back on the mic and write something oh shit I lost it
Cut pause it it's getting late and I'm exhausted
Now it's the middle of night and I'm trying t'go to sleep
But the room keeps playing deedeedeedeedeedeedee
Man I'm trying to please them but I can't appease them
And nobody believes me because nobody sees them
And so I write and I write and I sing indeed
And they won't be happy till my fingers bleed

In my room
It's like a dance and play
And I slave all day
In a tranced up state
In my room
I know I'm staying up late
In my room in my room

In my room
I think these walls are talking
In my room
I here these voices calling
In my room
In my room
In my room
(I don't what else to do man)

And they get mad at me when I'm quiet but love it when I sing
And all these sacrifices theirs never enough that I can bring
I give em everything I have hold back not a single thing
This room has got me feeling like a puppet on a string
And the load that I bear I'm trying to carry the weights off it
Who's in the mirror don't know who’s staring at me laughing
Scars are tearing I barely have slept awe shit
Who the fuck I am I'm just a marionette lost inSide of a room alone with these keys n a mic
Coming alive with the moon up from my knees and I'm like
Pinocchio breathed into life
Shinning in the eyes un-freezed and alive
But still I'm locked inside this tower thousand hours soon to be
Feel the power of a flower that is trapped but blooming free
And the cage has been unlocked but still a slave I'm doomed to be
And I'm starting to believe maybe it's not this room it's me

In my room
It's like a dance and play
And I slave all day
In a tranced up state
In my room
I know I'm staying up late
In my room in my room

In my room
I think these walls are talking
In my room
I here these voices calling
In my room
In my room
In my room

Free my mind
Let it go
This boy ain't gon take my soul
Let's tangle
Whooo
We gon role
Cuz I ain't gon take this no more

I'm sorry mama
I gots to go
Cuz theirs some things that you can't know
We gonna tangle
Yeah (fuck this guy motha fucker man) here we go
This boy don't scare me no more
Let’s tangle

I was just a little boy little boy see
The bigger boys use to pick on me
Put me on the ground and laid on in
Test my heart and test my chin
But they didn’t know me didn't know me
Didn’t know I'd fight back some day
That day will come my ground I'll stand
But first had to learn how to throw these hands
My bodies growing gonna get it rolling
Dunno how to throw cuz no father to show me
But that ain't gonna stop me it's the last time you got me
It's almost three o’clock and I'll meet you in the lobby
Walk to the playground it's gonna be my day now
Heading for your face and I'm coming at you ape style
Mama said to just walk away
But I don’t think that'll work for me

Free my mind
Let it go
This boy ain't gon take my soul
Let's tangle
Whooo
We gon role
Cuz I ain't gon take this no more

I'm sorry mama
I gots to go
Cuz theirs some things that you can't know
We gonna tangle
Yeah (fuck this guy motha fucker man) here we go
This boy don't scare me no more
Let’s tangle

Ok straight right left hook yeah I learned some boxing
Everybody’s talking the whole school is watching
Dunno what I'm doing feeling a little stranded
Threw a hundred shots only couple of em landed
But you and landed shit you should probably give it up man
Cuz I ain't gonna quit nope and I don't give a fuck man
Managed to drag him down got on top look at that wheeee
Screaming like a maniac before the teacher grabbed me
And old man Foster sent us to the doctor
Gotta get up checked up mostly from the neck up
Let go doors open think his nose is broken
Struttin out like hello I'll see your ass tomorrow
Back in the morning whole class swarming
Like what the fuck happened last thing we saw him tapping
We had your back through it never thought you'd do it
Yeah I had enough see this boy e'll never touch me

Free my mind
Let it go
This boy ain't gon take my soul
Let's tangle
Whooo
We gon role
Cuz I ain't gon take this no more
I'm sorry mama

I gots to go
Cuz theirs some things that you can't know
We gonna tangle
Yeah (fuck this guy motha fucker man) here we go
This boy don't scare me no more
Let’s tangle

You
Don't know my scars
But oooo
It's not who we are
Who we are

You
Don't know my scars
But oooo
It's not who we are
Who we are

You try to hold on till these days are getting warmer
But you don't know if your skin is enough armour
And you try to wash away those scars but they don’t wanna
I think theirs too much blood inside this water
Drain get it out all of the pain let it out
And these are very few things that you've said aloud
And it's you who you blame and you feel ashamed
Better change theirs to many stains on this sweater now
Cuz when you're bit and you're maimed you can
Drip all your veins but you can't get the venom out
Go insane like a setter hound in a room
Full of high pitch sounds chained to the bed n bound
And it's enough some days to just get around
What are these voices playing in your head about
It’ll be just fine no it ain’t you crazy
Shit's fucked like thanks I feel better now
And it's hard to explain or admit that the rain
Treading in the same place but we never drown
N that mind state better get up out
Better get the medic out if we can't find a better route
And so you try to hide these scars behind a smile
Remember what contentment is but its been a while
Some people say to lighten up days are gonna brighten up
And it's appreciated if only they could walk a mile
And you know they're trying to help you but it's never been your style
Alone you shovel off the shit that's got inside your pile
And sit beside another empty bottle get annihilated
Cuz you got allot of shit that's to be reconciled (fuck it man)

You
Don't know my scars
But oooo
It's not who we are
Who we are

You
Don't know my scars
But oooo
It's not who we are
Who we are

You try to hold on to the things that you hold dearer
But it feels like all these walls are closing nearer
You try to wipe away those tears so you see clearer
But you can't recognize yourself in the mirror
Damn and could you dare to be yourself
Itching and your scratching and you're tearing at your welts
It's a bitch and this shit is gonna take a little bit of time
Before you're even ready to be carried out this well
And if you think of who you use to be smiling usually
Just seems like ancient memories you buried on the shelf
And it's been a little while since you cared about your health
And it's hard for you to love because you barely love yourself
Some where along the way you lost your feet and you feel trapped
And now a days you're seeking for the key to get em back
But the key and all the answers that you seek lie in
Embracing pain and it's ok the deeper that you bleed and that's a fact
And they get strong the feelings that you feed until they're fat
Gotta take over control don't let them lead you and distract
N try to fill that empty void with each intoxicant you put
Inside your body but these people they don't need be knowing that
Because to overcome this you don't gotta be the bravest
Some cuts are deep enough to render god into a sadist
And so you gotta pick up all the pieces every stick and every leaf left
From the tallest tree that's fallen from the straightest
We gotta change the process of our thoughts to be courageous
Cuz we never know how far these stars are gonna take us
This life we're gonna take it back tomorrow we will wake and that
Pains still gonna be their but scars ain't gonna make us

You
Don't know my scars
But oooo
It's not who we are
Who we are

You
Don't know my scars
But oooo
It's not who we are
Who we are

Can someone
Hear me
It's been a long road
And I'm a long way
From home

Can someone
Hear me
It's been a long road
And I'm a long way
From home

I'm a little lost out of orbit gotta get home but
I don't know what kind of fuel that it will take
Maybe I should take this single flare and mix it with the little bit of
Fumes I have and sling shot of the moon then detonate
Cuz some days man it feels like I'm in quicksand and I can't breath and
I'm drowning getting deeper both my shoes are made of weights
I'm taking one step forward two steps backwards but at least
I’m going somewhere and I think I might just get their sooner at this rate
Cuz I use to have a place in mind a place to call my own but
Now that destinations been a little dubious of late
I keep on trying to stay focused but how do I concentrate
When all I know is life is coming stacking new shit on my plate
But I refuse to let it break me I'm a turn this shit around and
Back this mother fucker up and take it to him through him straight
I'm gonna rocket to the skies entire view illuminate
Somebody light the fireworks I'm going nuclear but wait
I think I'm in a hologram do I meditate
I don't know am I even lucid this illusion is it fake
The air in this environment I can infuse or acclimate
Theirs only so much of confusion and pollution I can take
N every cell inside my bodies split in two n duplicate
My DNA has changed becoming something new and I'm mutating
Take a look at my reflection and my pupils dilate
And I don't even know no more if I'm a human vertebrate
Gotta dig deep find out where I do originate
I gotta get that settled straight b'for I can truly liberate
Then to the edges of the universe where newer worlds await
But I don't know whether or not theirs enough fuel left in the tank
I'm gonna hit the speed of light without a fume left or a trace
I cannot will not be afraid because way too much is at stake
I gotta get me some vibranium to mix up in the manifold but
Can it hold I think that this aluminum will break

Can someone
Hear me
It's been a long road
And I'm a long way
From home

Can someone
Hear me
It's been a long road
And I'm a long way
From home

Ok I gotta keep moving and improving my position on this mission
And their ain't no time for cruising or a break
And I'm just trying to stay alert but been up few to many days
And I don't really know what else that I can do to stay awake
And it's true I came in late but is their anything at all that I can
Do or I can say to make my music resonate
A little blue inside the face my bodies bruised and desecrated
But I do it to be great and no excuses I will make
If I can take some of the weight off of my shoulders that'd be great
As I got older lighten up the load and too alleviate
The pressure and the stress is getting little heavy gonna need a levy
Just to hold it back or force me to evacuate
Now I'm resuming the escape because I know that I'm the only one
Who's got the key to open up or loosen up the gate
But damn how do I navigate am I delusional debating
Like I'm in the fucking Truman Show man who the hell is Nate
But I don't even know no more who I am of late
I try to put the pieces back together glue n get em straight
I wonder who am I do I got the blues am I elated
Man this shit has got me feeling bit confused it's complicated
Now I'm fuming I'm irate give me the booze so I'm sedated
So my mood is regulated stay secluded separated
In my room alone I try to find the root and contemplate it
Man I guess I got allot of thinking to evaluate
Okay I got to take some time to let these thoughts inside my mind
Just settle down a little bit and let em brew n marinate
I know the seeds been activated all I needs a detonator
I won't need an elevator or balloons to levitate
N I'll be finally vindicated by the music that I made
And take it back to where it started in my room alone just playing
I will find the resolution gonna grind the execution
Finally get some retribution this conclusion celebrate

Can someone
Hear me
It's been a long road
And I'm a long way
From home

Can someone
Hear me
It's been a long road
And I'm a long way
From home

And so I'm off to the carnival on my way
La de da la de da
And I've been waiting for this all day
La de da la de da
And all the freaks and the weirdos follow me
La de da la de da
And we'll dance on the carousel and we'll play
La de da la de da

Wake up in the morning caffeine pouring
Nothing day it's not you (nope)
This outfits foreign these clothes are boring
But nothing else we can do
And so we put on our suits and lace up our boots
And put our masks on like la de da
But it's just a rouse this world we amuse
Tryin'to listen to you mister bla bla bla
Yes mister boss man I'm your clone
I'll tell you what you want to know
If they only knew what we're like at home
What we do when we're all alone
And oh yes please won't somebody
Help me take off these shoes I'm done I'm free
Everybody ready now one two three
Take off your costumes and follow me (meet me at the carnival)
And so I'm off to the carnival on my way

La de da la de da
And I've been waiting for this all day
La de da la de da
And all the freaks and the weirdos follow me
La de da la de da
And we'll dance on the carousel and we'll play
La de da la de da

Once upon a time we were unconfined
Running round wild and free
But then we come to find that we went blind
And then one day we can't see (I can hardly see)
Inside the smoke we disappear
Watch as our souls just tumble by
Walking around this house of mirrors
Trying to figure out which one am I
It's a little isolated sometimes
Living in between the lines
And this path don't have no maps or signs
And normies think we are out our minds
But it's who we are and it's all we know
So we shed behind and leave our shells
Everybody ready now off we go
To the only place we can be ourselves (at the carnival)
And so I'm off to the carnival on my way

La de da la de da
And I've been waiting for this all day
La de da la de da
And all the freaks and the weirdos follow me
La de da la de da
And we'll dance on the carousel and we'll play
La de da la de da

At the carnival
La de da la de da
At the carnival
La de da la de da
At the carnival
La de da la de da
At the carnival
La de da la de da

When I close my eyes man I can see
All my dreams coming true for me
It's been a long long time since a little boy
So many days ago

When I close my eyes man I can see
All the things I was meant to be
Got a whole lotta work to do it's true
And a long ways to go (so let's go)

Now first things first gotta find a way
To turn these songs and these rhymes to pay
Have a little bit of nugget money stashed away
So I know my families gona be okay
Back to back shifts doing two in a row
So I work till I drop it's what I'm doing this for
Till my back don't work can't stand anymore
So I don't have to swing this god damn hammer no more
So I grind all day and I write all night
Back in the studio trying to make some dynamite
And I'll find my way through the grind alright
N I'll come out the other side when the time is right
It's been a long long day man living this was
Moving my way forward always gives me a buzz
And when I follow my dreams it's what doing this does
And I just can't stop and I do this because (I have too)

When I close my eyes man I can see
All my dreams coming true for me
It's been a long long time since a little boy
So many days ago

When I close my eyes man I can see
All the things I was meant to be
Got a whole lotta work to do it's true
And a long ways to go (so let's go)
I'm gonna buy me some land get me some acres man
I little way from town far from the pace inland
With lots of rolling hills tress tall and grand
Rivers n creeks fish birds calling and
I'm gonna build me a log home that can never fall
Not to big n not to small
With a big old chimney made of rock and stone
Giant red cedar deck now that's a home
I'm gonna dig me a big old hole in the ground
Not too long but not too round
With a big giant boulder on top of the mound
So I can watch all my koi fish swimming around
I'm gonna buy me a horse call him Maximus
And let him run free on the grass and dust
And he'll run so fast that he'll pass by us
But when we call him *fweet* Max he'll come back to us

When I close my eyes man I can see
All my dreams coming true for me
It's been a long long time since a little boy

So many days ago
When I close my eyes man I can see
All the things I was meant to be
Got a whole lotta work to do it's true
And a long ways to go (so let's go)

We got allot of space for some paws and packs
All of this land for them to run around and relax
For all of the little innocent dogs and cats
Who's owners didn't love em like we love Max
And they'll have their own rooms and I'll build em sheds
Filled with bones and filled with beds
Ok good night Winston Patches Lucky Ducky Frodo Gary
Kevin Fargus Marcus and Mumford (Haha Mumford sleep tight)
Now theirs one thing missing from this life to be
And what that is a little me
Gonna have me a son with a beautiful girl
Gonna teach him all the things that I've learned in this world
I'm gonna teach him how to not make excuses and
How to focus his passions into useful plans
How to protect those he loves and how to be a man
I'm going to be the father that I never had (damn right)

When I close my eyes man I can see
All my dreams coming true for me
It's been a long long time since a little boy
So many days ago

When I close my eyes man I can see
All the things I was meant to be
Got a whole lotta work to do it's true
And a long ways to go (so let's go)

Cuz I'm just a fly on the wall
Wings broken so I crawl
Quiet and disguised you won't recognize
This fly at all

Cuz I'm just a fly on the wall
Alone in this lonely hall
The world passes by slowly and I
I don't go

I see you their little sister little mister trapped in
In amidst your passion
Just sitting there on the grass while the rest of the class is playing ball
And you're all alone drawing on your little napkin
Teacher misses asking now how did this happen
Well to start you miss your dad and so your pictures little blackened
But that’s just the dad thing box you don’t fit in that thing
Cuz you a little bit different and now these kids are laughing
But they don't know what it feels like to be on the frits and having
Fits feeling like bugs crawling through your skin like bits of glass
And you're loosing grip so fast falling into an abyss everlasting
That you're trying fix and patch like a never ending itch you're scratching
Every little crick is cracking every single chip of glass is
Sounding like bricks turned ashes all you see is flicks n flashes
And you hope this shit just passes but that anxiety's got all of them
Words coming out of your mouth like thick molasses
It’s like a little water drop on your forehead that just won't stop
And it goes drip drop drip drop drip and splashes
You again and again and again what the fuck is this madness
Cuz it feels like a tidal wave now as it hits and crashes
More than a bit it slashes and your whole ship it trashes
And you're just caught in the rip tide now as it flips and thrashes
You around and around up and down making you sick it smashes
Leaving you with rips and gashes like it was whips and lashes
But these whips and lash leave scars on the inside fastened deep down
Cuz these wounds lurk underneath the skin it's tragic
You can try to slickly mask it you can try to twist that ratchet
But it will always be a part of you their ain't no fixing that shit
But you can learn to harness it even at will dispatch it
Turn it into an armory of weapons and swing that hatchet
And you just think imagine how you turn grit to magic
B'fore you go swinging off the planet and go swinging bat shit

Cuz I'm just a fly on the wall
Wings broken so I crawl
Quiet and disguised you won't recognize
This fly at all

Cuz I'm just a fly on the wall
Alone in this lonely hall
The world passes by slowly and I
I don't go

So you all grown up now look at that kid you lasted
Faced that shit stead fast yup just as the script forecasted
All the chains you picked unlatched and all the walls so thick you blasted
And you almost digged your casket but dodged all the big disasters
And along the way yes you got a bit distracted
Ducking tricks and hazards now that shit you mastered
Like some flip gymnastics now isn’t it fantastic
How far you've come along way now from that little bastard
At least that's what they called you didn't they little pricks and plastics
Never felt a part of this world always looking in on it it's classic
Tale and you drink to mask it gotta kick this habit
What's in this glass hmm little bit of this shit that shit
Maybe mix some jack in maybe drink some acid
Okay okay just kidding nah that shit's too drastic
But shit I understand it and if you grow up anything like me
Then everything comes out a little bit sarcastic
Maybe I'm a bit too plastered feeling a little placid
Haven't ate much today going on a little fasted
Didn't sleep much last night was a bit too spastic
Two o’clock three o’clock 4 o’clock time trying just to pass it
And you might just snap shit feeling like a stretched elastic
Mix a little bliss with panic feeling a little bit contrasted
And the fuse might just blow something done ripped the gasket
Is their anything else that we can add in this basket
Man I can flip this pattern just as you think you've mapped it
And you can throw everything you've got at it but it just adapted
Where do we go from here now so long this shit has lasted
You know the answer but the question you're too afraid to ask it
I can tell you it's not fast takes time while this is crafted
Every day’s a little progress and tougher skin is grafted
And you can make your own path now a new blue print is drafted
N you got this alas cuz you're gonna kick some ass kid

Cuz I'm just a fly on the wall
Wings broken so I crawl
Quiet and disguised you won't recognize
This fly at all

Cuz I'm just a fly on the wall
Alone in this lonely hall
The world passes by slowly and I
I don't go

When I close my eyes I hope this world don't disappear
Sometimes I loose my mind I hope I'm stronger than my fears
I think I lost my soul somewhere long time ago
All I know is I will find my way back home

When I close my eyes I hope this world don't disappear
Sometimes I loose my mind I hope I'm stronger than my fears
I think I lost my soul somewhere long time ago
All I know is I will find my way back home

I like when the sun shines down upon our skin with those rays of light
I feel like it's ok this life I dunno I might just stay a while
Just trying to find out who I am and yes I'm gonna take my time
I take a look back at yesterday that's just the way nother day goes by
And the days turn years how fast they fly nother birthday passes by
Not exactly where I thought that I would be by now but that's alright
N I don't know who I was meant to be that destiny still trying to find
Trying to hold onto those dreams of mine when they're out of site and out of mind
But I'm never gonna give up never gonna let little bit of lemons
Hinder me from living life or pushing to the limit of it
Right up in the middle of it riding the momentum and then
When I'm looking back I don't regret a single minute of it
Well maybe a few things
Wouldn't change em though
And I wish I knew the way and I always sung and played
But I guess I never put in all my heart and soul in front of me
I was just a little man I was just a runaway
Oh man I wish the older me coulda spoken to the younger me (and I would say)

When I close my eyes I hope this world don't disappear
Sometimes I loose my mind I hope I'm stronger than my fears
I think I lost my soul somewhere long time ago
All I know is I will find my way back home

I think about all of the times I wish that I was grown
Now I sit around and wonder like where did the magic go
Everyday just seems the same but theirs one thing that I know
Maybe that's just life shit no good to stress about it though
And it's a bitter pill to swallow some days I'm feeling hallow
Sometimes I look around and I see nothing but my shadow
And now back and forth I bobble am I just an empty bottle
Floating 'way the currents got me I might need a map to follow
And I don’t know
Which way to go
But I look deep inside I find the strength that I will borrow
And now I will face today the same as I will face tomorrow
But it's been a long long day time was counting slow
Push n grinding and my knees all bruised and battered though
I pushed so many years how many more can I I don't know
But at least I'm on my way on my way back home

When I close my eyes I hope this world don't disappear
Sometimes I loose my mind I hope I'm stronger than my fears
I think I lost my soul somewhere long time ago
All I know is I will find my way back home